confucius or confusion?

My head seems very dizzy at this moment. Sometimes I wonder can you pack any more different kinds of thoughts in your head. Up till a month ago I fully believed I was Albania bound. I had no thought otherwise. Then I went to Texas, surrounded myself around people in ministry and was tired of waiting for Albania. I started seriously thinking that there could be somewhere else I can serve that needs me more urgently. Today after I got back to my Grandpa's house after the funeral, I checked my e-mail and there it was what I had been waiting for these past seven months. My approval to go to Albania,there it was and instead of being excited, I found myself confused. I just told myself to think about another option, and here comes my golden ticket. It feels like it was lost in the gutter this whole time but just today it decided to show itself. I have no idea what feels right anymore? I seem to have no emotion good or bad. Through all the activities of the month-I guess I am just raw in all ways. I know throughout the week I will regain consciousness, and clear thoughts shall reappear.

A little bit of grace and a little bit of peace. Many prayers, and many laughs please!

Comments

Erin said…
Wow! Emily, I hate it when things like that happen. I totally understand. That happens to me all the time. I'm a very complex and confused human being. haha. I always know that God has the "ultimate" plan but I hate being confused about what I should do next. I mean both of your options are following a "good and pleasing" life for God. They are both good. You aren't killing anyone or wanting to be a prostitute. You don't have a right or wrong choice where the answer is evident. You just want to serve and you have to choose between two good options. More than one option to serve and do good now that's a hard decision. And you obviously can't do both of them. It's all so confusing. Lots of prayer is in order here. You know what, I'm sure that whatever you pick God will use you to the max in that place.

I hate being confused and I'm sorry that you are confused right now. I hope everything works out soon.

Erin.
July 29, 2008 at 12:48 PM
karye said…
Dude Ems, I thought I was confused! lol. Just kidding! I love you! On a serious note, my recent blog deals with this kind of thing exactly...so I'm encouraging you to read it. lol. I hate choices personally, but I'm learning that the saying "When God closes a door he opens a window" is so true..but more like when God closes a door he opens another. He'll set your feet upon the right path...trust is key here and I know it's not easy. I love you girl and can't wait until we get a chance to talk.
August 1, 2008 at 11:21 AM
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